It’s happening again.
I’m doing what I said I wasn’t going to do:
let life get way out of balance –
I mean – WAY out of balance.
I love what I do
I don’t consider it a job because I enjoy it so much,
but usually I let it consume me and my time –
especially at this time of year.
It’s something I’ve struggled with for what seems too long.
I even started this year with a new resolve:
to balance family, home, work, church
but, sigh . . .
About a month ago, a friend asked me if I had seen my hellebores blooming.
Oh my gosh, had I missed the first blossoms of spring?
As a self-proclaimed beauty-seeker, I was mad at myself.
How had my schedule become so full of to do’s that I had forgotten how to just be?
How had my focus become so narrow that I had forgotten to really see?
I ran out with camera in hand
hunting for beauty
and found it –
there on the hillside covered in lovely blossoms
Such a good reminder to live life slow
not as if life is an emergency;
to take the time to seek and see the beauty that’s right before me
and to thank God for each gift
Time is one of those gifts
and though it seems there is never enough of it,
every morning I need a reminder
that God has given me enough time
it’s all how I use it,
not how it uses me.
So a new resolve stirs to slow and be in the moment,
to balance, but always seek Him first,
and to be tuned in to the grace-shower that follows.
‘Plant the good seeds of righteousness,
and you will harvest a crop of love.
Plow up the hard ground of your hearts,
for now is the time to seek the Lord,
that He may come and shower righteousness upon you.’
– Hosea 10:12